Faith Journey
Tensions
I am a recovering sinner, and this means I live in constant tension between some nasty tendencies
and some new aspirations emerging in my faith.
I am inclined to be critical and judgmental of others, rather than confessing my own shortcomings.
I am not as gracious toward others' struggles as God is, and I am quite dishonest about mine.
I am more bent toward confronting others about their wrongs than diligent about demonstrating compassion toward them.
I act as if I am more important than others, rather than serving them as God's loved ones.
I want to hide among a select group of believers who affirm my biases, rather than risk being misunderstood or opposed.
I crave recognition and praise more than practicing quiet service toward the least among us.
I desire to achieve my own version of heaven-on-earth: personal convenience, unhindered access to wherever I want to go, and privilege over others.
I value my own safety from danger, harm, pain or loss, rather than being open to risky involvement with others.
I am discovering my tendency to enjoy having power over others, in contrast to gentleness, vulnerability and submission.
I need to acknowledge that I am rich because I have choices, while multitudes are jobless, homeless and hungry.
And I like money way too much.
I am a member of a generation that lives as if we have an inalienable right to pleasure, pain-free living and unlimited freedom of choice.
Lord, help! This must stink in your nostrils as I live in bondage to me.
"Now if you are unwilling to serve the LORD, choose this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your ancestors served in the region beyond the river or the gods of the Amorites in whose land you are living, but as for me and my household, we will serve the Lord." (Joshua 24:15)
Lord, thank you for amazing patience, welcoming grace and boundless love. Hear my cry and help me make the choices that reflect your ways, not mine.
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